Confusion & Innerwears

... same mental state contd...

was working on a lot of things till day before yesterday, but by now, the feeling is sinking in that I need to leave. Made a good place for my self and was almost a perfect fit in the arrangement around but then there are bigger games life makes us play. No worries, I'm ON. Top Form !!!
"The trouble with my life is that it's like a bra strap when you put your bra on wrong. So there's one part of the strap that's all twisted and sticking out under your T-shirt and you fix that, and then the part near the hook becomes tangled. Then, after you've struggled with it for a while, because you can't see so far down your back, and straightened it out, the bit near your front is all funny. So if I've got my career sorted, my love life magically vanishes and vice versa when the love front is perfectly taken care of..."

Another wonderful thought just flashed thru my mind that actually a good realtionship is again like an innerwear; starts with all mushy mushy fun, you feel good, hold hands, touch, every thing goes so damn well for the first six months just like a new innerwear[read bra]. but with time, the hooks wear off and the fabric grows thinner. every single time you try to put it on it creates problem coz the hooks have grown rusty, they refuse to settle down with each other.

But, the silver lining is that the fabric with every wash and every single use keeps on getting softer, it starts fitting your body like its own with time. and you get used to the hooks not getting along with each other. Something similar happens to us. Every single time u gotta make it for a party you enter into a feud on very very trivial issues...but then with time the comfort zone starts creeping in... ain't it..

So it settles down to a point where we need to settle down for a high quality fitting innerwear.... or rather a peaceful life .

My friend says...

"You choose your own place..."

& I say...

" Every person, all the events of your life are there because you have drawn them there
What u choose to do with them is up to u.

What the caterpillar calls the end of the world..the master calls a butterfly !!! "

Cheers !!

Outrage...

.....there are good times, there are bad times and then there's absurdity all around. Times when you don't know what next. There are times when you have a dozen ways and means rite in front of you and within a blink you are left in a zero with no where to go.

Risk at times however calculated it may be, becomes very subjective. There are people around who would support you to take chances all the while but rite at the moment would back up coz it involves risk. There would be people who would keep telling you to play stable shots but at the same time expect you to strike gold. But investing in stocks is lesser risk oriented than getting married, if you completely understand the perspective..

Its always difficult to cope up with change. [ Now a days they teach Change management in high profile trainings... I wonder the viability in a mental realm]. Change no doubt is inevitable, brings pain. But it is known, isn't it. The entire thing is getting very confusing. and thats exactly the kind of mental state I am in. Pretty Amusing, my sister sent me an offline chat today and asked ...

"aap ki bhi lyf na....

shayad kabhi, koi nahi samajh sakta

u know wat..

sometimes, wen i hv nthing els to do...i wonder on an interesting thing

Ur FUTURE??

nd guess wat comes to ma mind...

u dere??

. .. . . . "

You need to outgrow yourself. Rise up in Protest. Do your own thing and stand by it. Why grant someone else a power to rule your world and put constant values in your everchanging equations.

As Richard Bach says -

"...The sky is ever changing and ever beautiful. just like moving oceans.

A cloud does not know why it moves in just such a direction and at such a speed...
...it feels an impulsion - this is the place to go now. But the sky knows the patterns behind all clouds & YOU will know too when you'll lift yourself high enough to see beyond horizons"

Cheers !!

Dosti - Just Like That !!

कोई कैसे कहे.... दोस्ती क्या है....

My best fren workng in mumbai got to know that I'm planning to move out of the town. 12:30 in the morning on a bright Tuesday. Was Moved when I heard her crying, unconsolably. And, lo, she was here on saturday afternoon.

Honestly, one of the best days in th past couple of months...A Relaxed Sunday completely. The way I love it. Wake up at 1030..... bread butter maggi at 1100 hrs.... and a nostalgic session of reviewing the hundreds of snaps filmed in the glorious 4 yrs[2001 -2005] of my college, rather engg life (coz it has hardly bin an engineer's life since then).

Never have I loved tea more than this day where I had 4 mugs of the 2nd favorite Ginger lemon black shot at Barista. 6 hrs at a stretch at a chair(and u thot i was unstable). Discussed every single thing that has happened, that is happening, or like a drunken astrologer, is about to happen. There are rare few times when you can be completely urself, cut loose and let go...
This was one of them ... three frens after a long time on a coffee meet , when one of them is leaving.....freakin good time.

My fren from mumbai is one who's seen me at all times, raw, in and out. she was the one i used to console when i joined my first job in pune and she was looking out.... and damn the tables turn so well.... we sat at the same bus stop exactly 3 yrs later... she's well settled with the top bank in India as a Biz Analyst, and im looking.....Like Nikhil says..'Fate, is not without a sense of irony' !!

So True. But then the best part is a Daaru and smoke with a Pizza parcel on a stranded bus stop at Fergusson College Road at late evenings... No where in India can you find peace to sit at a public place and booze with pizza. Unconcerned unsung unmourned life...one that we love.

We've grown irate with time. Living a loner for the past 8 yrs i've learned to make my peg myself[pun intended]. but when a b'tender makes a wrong combination , you tend to take case left rite center. A sound of mixer grinder at the coffee shop, maid banging the door suddenly, the bike ahead taking a sudden turn, call drop, baby of the guy in the seat ahead crying during the movie, socks disappearing in the morning..... anything is good enough to make ur BP soar by good 20 points and you end up banging your fist out and loud ..WHAT THE FUCK !!

And then, Shaadi, the much feared issue amongst all 5 of us. We fear shaadi like nothing else. Lived a free life all the while. then when we had everything and no money. now when we have money and nothing else. So now, when u talk shaadi, all we accomplished souls take a guard.... not that we fear responsibility, but then that we fear answerability somewhere or the else.... some one fears the unpredictability of life ahead, the other cries foul on sex, someone is not too sure whom to be with , to be or not to be is just another big question...and ME, a self proclaimed authority on relationships went on and on giving gyaan to these two poor souls, who lend me all the resources of confidence, unadulterated, unbiased, leaving no holes barred. ...

So dodging all of this, I've reached my den, as a ritual I've had my tonic... am feeling good. felt happy that i've got a few caring people around, that i can drink in peace. So I'm here reciting all the jazz to u.... so tht u dont have to complain ki 'bataya nahi'.

YANNI playing Until the last moment.... a couple of sips left....n I cant sleep...


JUST LIKE THAT ...